All these good things were happening to me in my business life, but my personal life was starting to unravel again.
I felt this before. Success in the eyes of others, but the foundation was shaky 
It seemed as if I could never balance the two.
As soon as I started to gain wealth, I lost clarity. And when I had clarity, I had no wealth. 
Maybe the two were never meant to be mixed.
Or maybe I misunderstood the definitions 
Macey hates me again, because I do a poor job of juggling parts of my life 
So caught up in the game, sometimes I forget that anything outside of it exist
Total dedication. 
Walking a balance beam from one decision to the next
Living our lives clinching  
Those drunken outbursts, we needed them. 
Yelling at the top of our lungs
Those midnight shoulder cries, we needed them.
Barely making out words because of the mucus clogging our voice box 
As I grew older, I started to realize why my best friend would drink and go into a rage. Running down the street, yelling and screaming the craziest things
He needed it.
The result of holding on to the thoughts that could potentially veer us off course.
Our personal detox. Life's way of balancing things out for you
The release of pressure 
It builds back up as I stare at this blank tv screen, watching a movie play out right in front of my face
You get the feeling that you only exist in a world that's moving around you 
Second guessing decisions you were oh so sure of 
Time rewinds, but sometimes it just doesn't rewind back far enough